My personal testimony
I went to a Christian school in 2006 having the principle of Jesus drilled into my Head, but with no desire within me to even know about Jesus. I was in the church every Sunday, but constantly living a life of sex, drugs, alcohol, and partying. I remember going to the front of the Church countless times to receive Christ being moved by a message, but that was just it… only moved, not changed.
I started playing sports in High school and got caught up in the monogamy of “fitting in” with the crowd and reaching to find my identity but always coming up empty. I fell into an immoral relationship at the age of 17 and ended in marriage at the age of 20. Shortly before the marriage we found out that she became pregnant and I still didn’t Know Jesus.
In the year 2009 I was serving in the Army National Guard returning from my trip from Germany, a short deployment from a mission. Our son was born 2 months prior to the deployment and my return was awaited and longed for to spend my only second moment with him. The next moment sitting in my house with my son in my arms, he suddenly went into a seizure. I attempted all that I knew to save his life, but to no avail he passed 2 days later in the hospital on life support.
My life turned upside down, and a part of me gone, my wife gone, all I had was an accusation for the death of my child and four prison walls and a steel bed. At the time of 2 AM in the morning broken, contemplating suicidal thoughts and ways to kill myself, i had a vision of preaching to Gospel of Jesus Christ to Millions of people across the world. My life had been void of joy, peace, and I most definitely had no hope within me or a reason so I thought to even live.
I have heard the message many times about Gods saving grace on Sundays, but that message became real to me in the walls of a prison cell. God spoke to me a scripture in Philippians 4:7 Paul says “ He will give you the peace that transcends all understanding that will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.” This became real to me as I hit my knees and cried out for Jesus!
I knew I was saved! I began Bible studies and prayer meetings as the Lord led, I seen many lives changed and situations overturned. No matter your past, no matter your hurts or shame. God can and wants to use you right where you are! Romans 8:28-30 says “And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And having chosen them, he called them to come to him. And having called them, he gave them right standing with himself. And having given them right standing, he gave them his glory.” All who call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved. (Romans 10:3)
I went to a Christian school in 2006 having the principle of Jesus drilled into my Head, but with no desire within me to even know about Jesus. I was in the church every Sunday, but constantly living a life of sex, drugs, alcohol, and partying. I remember going to the front of the Church countless times to receive Christ being moved by a message, but that was just it… only moved, not changed.
I started playing sports in High school and got caught up in the monogamy of “fitting in” with the crowd and reaching to find my identity but always coming up empty. I fell into an immoral relationship at the age of 17 and ended in marriage at the age of 20. Shortly before the marriage we found out that she became pregnant and I still didn’t Know Jesus.
In the year 2009 I was serving in the Army National Guard returning from my trip from Germany, a short deployment from a mission. Our son was born 2 months prior to the deployment and my return was awaited and longed for to spend my only second moment with him. The next moment sitting in my house with my son in my arms, he suddenly went into a seizure. I attempted all that I knew to save his life, but to no avail he passed 2 days later in the hospital on life support.
My life turned upside down, and a part of me gone, my wife gone, all I had was an accusation for the death of my child and four prison walls and a steel bed. At the time of 2 AM in the morning broken, contemplating suicidal thoughts and ways to kill myself, i had a vision of preaching to Gospel of Jesus Christ to Millions of people across the world. My life had been void of joy, peace, and I most definitely had no hope within me or a reason so I thought to even live.
I have heard the message many times about Gods saving grace on Sundays, but that message became real to me in the walls of a prison cell. God spoke to me a scripture in Philippians 4:7 Paul says “ He will give you the peace that transcends all understanding that will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.” This became real to me as I hit my knees and cried out for Jesus!
I knew I was saved! I began Bible studies and prayer meetings as the Lord led, I seen many lives changed and situations overturned. No matter your past, no matter your hurts or shame. God can and wants to use you right where you are! Romans 8:28-30 says “And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And having chosen them, he called them to come to him. And having called them, he gave them right standing with himself. And having given them right standing, he gave them his glory.” All who call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved. (Romans 10:3)